first, i want to thank Melissa for sending me an email reminding me to keep y'all updated :)
hospital thing and then the flu thing really hit me hard .. maybe more
emotionally than physically? ::shrugging:: all i really know is that i
was so looking forward to a 2 week "vacation" from the chemo and it
just didn't work out the way i had planned :)
i was well enough to venture down to my office for a couple of hours ..
i had to get a ride from a coworker cause i just don't feel up to
driving yet, but at least its a step in the right direction !!
fever - gonechills - gonesore throat - goneenergy level - way up !!appetite - way up !!
a few weeks/months ago, several journalers suggested i join ChemoAngels .. Welcome to Chemo Angels
read the website and found that i was extremely hesitant in signing up
for "charity" pampering .. i mean, here i am .. i have so much support
from my family, friends and journaling buddies .. i figured there were
probably a lot of people out there that could use their generous
and then i changed my mind :)
days i started receiving cards and small gifts from my 2 chemo angels
.. (i think somebody made a mistake and assigned me 2 angels, when we're
only supposed to get one .. but if you don't tell them, i won't either
i have Erika, my Angel from Virginiaandi have Sandy, my Angel from Illinois
2 ladies have made me WANT to walk out to my mailbox again
!!! when somebody like me is racking up over $60,000 in medical costs
(so far) a trip to the mailbox can end up being a rather traumatic
they send to me, the way they share their lives with me, cheering me on,
wishing me well, sending refrigerator magnets, bookmarks .. you should
see how my dresser top is covered with their special mail !! i am like a
child at Christmas when i walk out to my mailbox and see that i have
mail from my angel's !!
.. i'm actually sitting here crying .. i don't know if these 2 ladies
have any idea how much it means to me to be able to spend a few moments a
week .. smiling, reading the cards i received from each of them .. they
are both so sweet and we seem to have so much in common !!
wish i had the energy to correspond with both of my chemo angels .. but
i don't and trust me, my handwriting is looking more like a 2 year olds
than a 49 year olds lol
so i figured, instead, maybe i'd just
write a little something in my journal, letting both of them know how
much they mean to me .. and then sending them a copy of this entry ..
realize i'm gonna get "caught" when they discover i have 2 angels :(
so i am probably going to lose one of them .. but thats ok .. cause the
amount of pampering i've received so far, just a few weeks after signing
up for chemo angels .. well, they just have this way of making me feel
i think the part that made it so easy for me to accept
their pampering is .. well, this is what was written in the email i
received from ChemoAngels ..
NOTE!!! We want you to focus your energy on your health. You do not have
to respond to your Angels if you are not up to it. This is not a pen
pal program (unless you want it to be!) This is all for you. And if you
are of the old school who feel compelled to send a thank-you note for
every item received, we ask you to resist that urge. Your Angel(s) would
appreciate a brief email or note from you every now and then just to
let her/him know how you are doing, but please do not feel that you must
respond. If you ever feel that your Angel is expecting a response from
you, please let me know. If you ever do not hear from your Angel for 10
days or more, PLEASE notify me! We want you to experience the best that
the ChemoAngels program has to offer. thank you to MY Angels .. thank you :)
and thanks to both journalers whosuggested i join ChemoAngels :)
and thanks to my lil sis Nancy, who has decided to make a "career" out of finding me books from my list to read lol