my 14 year old daughter has this sure fire way of getting my attention .. all she has to do is start a conversation with "mom, i know you're probably going to get upset but ..."
and this morning she got my attention
been divorced from my children's father for 11 years, the same amount
of time i endured being married to him .. at first we shared joint
custody but for the last 8 years i've had full custody of my daughter ..
out of sheer financial necessity, i finally convinced myself last year
that i had a responsibility to sue him for child support
ex-husband and his new wife have a nice local home that they were in
the process of remodeling .. they also have a second home in hawaii ..
all the while, my daughter and i struggle to pay for groceries .. there
was something wrong with the picture and i finally decided i needed to
"fix" it .. last week i was informed that the papers were finally being
drawn up so i should begin receiving child support very soon
fast forward to this morning ..
dad is thinking about moving and last night he asked me if i wanted to
live with him in hawaii during my freshman year in high school"
like i said, she knows how to get my attention .. and "upset" is an understatement
want my children to experience as many things in life as opportunity
affords them .. even though i was crushed 2 years ago to find out my son
would be attending college in hawaii instead of locally, i was excited
for him that he had the opportunity to experience something that is not
offered to everyone
same holds true for my feelings for my daughters life .. how exciting
it would be for a 14 year old to be able to live for a year on the
already warned her not to get too excited .. her dad blows smoke out his
butt with regularity .. i have yet to have him give his word on
anything that he followed through on
thought of losing my daughter for an entire year has me floored ..
weall knew when they bought the second home in hawaii that there was a
really good chance that they'd be moving over there .. i just never
dreamed he'd want to take my daughter
now i want to hurt him or at the very least, to call him on the phone
and scream at him .. how DARE he feel he has the right to entice my
daughter away from me
i can't compete with hawaii .. hell .. i'd probably move over there myself if he asked me (NOT !!) but it sure would be tempting
part of me would probably enjoy having my own life again for a year .. yea right
i knew both of my children would be leaving the nest someday .. just not THIS soon
me cynical .. 11 years he's gone without showing any interest in living
with his daughter .. until the very week that i am granted child
support .. i wonder if there's a connection
i need to go distract myself .. i'm feeling ill